hold nothing back

Hello tumblr. I’m going to be using ngohelen.tumblr.com to blog from here on out!

Sun, 07 Oct 2012 21:12:46 -0700

Hello tumblr. I’m going to be using ngohelen.tumblr.com to blog from here on out!

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Sun, 20 May 2012 00:22:59 -0700

As much as I hate being dependent on meds, I need them to...

Fri, 23 Mar 2012 11:43:54 -0700

As much as I hate being dependent on meds, I need them to function. I’ve been so tired because I ran out of some =\

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Thu, 15 Mar 2012 20:44:44 -0700

Suicide Awareness Week.

Tue, 13 Mar 2012 03:14:32 -0700

Suicide Awareness Week.

suicide awareness week.

Mon, 12 Mar 2012 01:34:51 -0700

suicide awareness week.

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Wed, 15 Feb 2012 14:19:23 -0800

roxanneroxy: feels so good:)

Wed, 15 Feb 2012 14:18:11 -0800

roxanneroxy:

feels so good:)

my kind of humor =]

Fri, 10 Feb 2012 03:50:22 -0800

my kind of humor =]

Medication

Wed, 01 Feb 2012 03:34:48 -0800

So much medication each day and I know it is going to be that way for a lot of years. I cringe at the thought of it. All the side effects doesn’t help with ridding that thought. At the same time though, I know I need all of them to live. What a love hate relationship.

Every 17 seconds someone commits suicide. Reblog this if you're there to listen to anyone who needs to talk.

Sun, 01 Jan 2012 20:39:28 -0800

New years

Sun, 01 Jan 2012 01:49:26 -0800

I can’t believe I’m alive to see 2012. I know I’m suppose to celebrate this joyous time but I can’t help it but cry when the clock struck 12.

ohyaydesign: Let it go…

Tue, 22 Nov 2011 01:45:38 -0800

ohyaydesign:

Let it go…

UC Berkeley Shooting

Wed, 16 Nov 2011 16:18:21 -0800

http://www.dailycal.org/2011/11/16/student-shot-by-ucpd-tuesday-dies-in-hospital/

This article clearly shows how ignorant people can people, no matter what their social or academic status is. It was first announced that the male with the procession of a weapon was not a Berkeley student. Turns out he is a Berkeley student and has a history of suicide as well. He probably had that gun because he wanted to commit suicide or held it up (if he even did) so that the cops can end his life. No matter what, the point is still that the cops fired at him several times and now he no longer has a chance to fight to live, to be happy. I would understand if they only shot at him once in a nonlethal place where he would still have a chance at surviving, then they can take him down. Also, is it really necessary for UCPD to describe him as “not normal”?

ashleyording: Fancy Fine: Autumn Hues

Wed, 16 Nov 2011 11:46:37 -0800

ashleyording:

Fancy Fine: Autumn Hues

Mindfulness

Tue, 15 Nov 2011 14:23:48 -0800

Take a break from your chaotic day and practice mindfulness. Appreciate the simple little things and it’ll make you feel much better!

It's not because

Fri, 14 Oct 2011 10:58:21 -0700

we’re lazy

it’s all in our heads

we want to feel this way

we’re selfish

Sleep

Thu, 13 Oct 2011 12:01:19 -0700

Sleep sleep sleep. I either sleep too much or can’t sleep at all. I go through cycles where I would sleep for countless hours because I don’t want to wake up. However, afterward I would go on for days without sleeping. Blahh, I was awake for a couple of days so I decided to take my prescribed sleeping pills. It’s been awhile so I forgot the dosage and took more than I needed. I ended up waking up at 4pm and feeling dizzy for the rest of the night. It made me not want to take any last night so I just ended up not sleeping. I laid in bed awake until my 8 a.m. class. I have volunteering tonight till about 11 p.m. Hopefully I will be tired to the point I will just knock out.

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